A lonely genius or a famous fool

( PS: This post might contain a few spell chk errors and grammatical sentence formation errors, Kindly bear with me, I am revamping my complete blog for spell check and grammer in a days time).

Ok, Here we go, There is this other theory I have, which goes something like this, if you really think through your complete life and wonder who has been with you the most ( qualitatively & quantitatively in terms of no. of hours you spent with them), and wonder who can help you in your life for anything you want in life. You would realise that nobody nobody in your life, can stay that long with you in your life. BUT dont lose heart yet, there is someone there ( no not me yaar, I hardly know you- but I dont mind if you are girl with the kind of character I look for).

But say if you think introspectively ( yeah there's word like this, I checked in Wikipedia), you would realise that Its always JUST you whos been there with you always whenever you wake up, whenever you have a problem and for all 24 hrs a day ( yeah its a weird thought, but I shall explain this in a moment, wait). The point is when since you spend so much time with yourself and if you are not comfortable with yourself then you got a problem. Can you stay put a friend or partner whom you dont like for 24 hrs a day and 365 days a year for your full like. Well its that bad.

Most times, we just arent comfortable with ourselves,we just do things because we think people will like us more if we do the things they like us do. We want people to accept us & love us. But the point is, if you, are not your real you, Who will they accept ( your just your proxy you, your are no longer yourself). Infact when I was talking about this one of my friend, he said, normally people would prefer to be a " famous fool" than a " lonely genius". Now isnt that seriously bad. Yeah its ok to want people to like you, but like he said you would end up only being a fool if you can live your whole life in trying to make people like you.

Its easier said than done, but the irony is but if you really believe in yourself and not really worry too much about what others percieve of you, then that makes you comfortable, cause you are no longer suspectible to outsiders and thier thoughts, you are not longer a mirror (which just reflects the world, you are who you are) and ironically thats what makes more people to like you more.

Now Super Ironically- having said all this. I should also confess that I have all this thoughts and type in all this, but this isnt me, I am not like this. I like people more, I like being with the them, & whoever is it (call me a Obssessive Compulsive Extrovert), and sometimes I do things, just for the sake that somebody around me likes it and makes him feel happy. Its not like that I am not comfortable with myself or anything, ( I can stay all alone for even months together if I want to, as long as I have play my Playstation to play with, my archies-ayn rands-robin cooks-Crichtons-economic times to give me company , have a steady source of new english movies, I can even make jokes and talk to myself and be extremely happy). but just that It wouldnt compensate for someone talking to me and being with them. Now going by own logic, I dont know if that makes me a emotionally weak or not ( FYI & Suprisingly, I always prided in myself being very strong emotionally). but anyway thats how I am and maybe on hindsight maybe I should try to be more of I.

Sathish...